Signing Off Again March 13, 2015

just wanted to drop a note saying that i will be signing off again.  since last time i really believed it would be permanent, and it wasnt, i wont repeat the goodbyes now. because who knows right?  i can say that at this point i am not planning to write again for the foreseeable future.  the main reason currently is that i plan to be completely saturated with medical cannabis for at least the next few months and i refuse to subject anyone to not only inebriated radfem writing, which certainly would be bad enough, but inebriated nutty radfem writing which would probably be a bit difficult to follow.  haha.  maybe in a good way, but frankly i do not think as a writer i am up to the challenge.  and it bothers me to think that i might start to think i am, at a later time, but when im really not.  savvy?  so best put the lid on this now.  youre welcome!

to be clear, my research indicates that you do not have to be stoned on pot to get the healing qualities of cannabis, and in fact there is plenty you can do that will not get you stoned at all.  drinking 4-8 ounces daily of juiced fresh cannabis leaves will not get anyone high, but it will begin to saturate you, every nook and cranny of you, with the healing goodness of medical pot.  in fact there are those who talk about juiced cannabis as if cannabis is a vegetable, and that modern humans suffer from a cannabis deficiency — humans and cannabis evolved together over millions of years and it was a part of our daily diets until recently.  mammals including humans have cannabinoid receptors throughout our bodies through which we process cannabis.  so it seems as if we are literally built to consume it.  i have only been looking into this for a couple of weeks, and admittedly this kind of stuff is way above my pay grade.  however i can report the following: from what i can tell, cannabis patients seekers with my condition, and with various conditions, are overwhelmingly getting good results; and its best to take the whole plant including activated (psychoactive) THC.

i can also report the following sensation: upon seeing a virtual glass of juiced cannabis for the first time, i would have done just about anything to consume it.  every bit of me, it seems, wanted me to drink it down, and then lick the inside of the glass.  cant argue with that.  i plan to do everything possible with cannabis including putting it in my ass if it will improve my (sad, degraded) condition — and indeed, people are doing colonics with the juice.

anyway, back to signing off.  i came back several months ago (after leaving the first time) to write about NTE stuff and i have done so.  i really really believe that near term human extinction, or at least human extinction, is the logical end result to global patriarchy.  living outside mens subsidy model which we all ultimately do — in the natural world in other words and subject to natural (not mens) laws, and where the costs ride alongside the benefits and are inseparable from them, and where resources are finite — eventually you run out of things to destroy.  that is just the extremely simple, and self-evident truth of it.  the “unsustainable” thing — the thing that cannot go on forever by definition — will end.  words mean things, and everyone is using the “unsustainable” word these days, but failing to grok what it actually means.  which is aggravating, but not surprising i suppose, considering that “trans women are women!” but trans-atlantic is clearly not atlantic.

by the by, regarding this pomo word salad garbage, i dont think its that “nothing means anything anymore” rather, it seems as if in all cases, the male-supremacist/pro-patriarchal meaning is the “real” meaning.  all other meanings can fuck off.  in a pro-patriarchal context, “unsustainable” just means women need to work very very very hard to make it work?  i guess?  whereas the “natural” (real) context is simply one of cause and effect, and natural law dictates that the unsustainable thing > will end.  there really is no debating that, so any rational discussion would then proceed to address HOW (not whether) it will end.  considering that the problem of men and maleness is a self-reinforcing feedback loop, where men rape > creating more men > who rape more…it seems as if the end will be abrupt, and catastrophic.  such is the fate of self-reinforcing feedback loops in general.  get it?  patriarchy, as everything, is subject to the laws of nature/physics. who knew?

welp, women knew, as it turns out.  women knew and women know — women have tried to stop men from raping and otherwise impregnating us for milennia, thereby ending the self-reinforcing feedback loops of global overpopulation and over male population but it didnt fucking work.  men would not allow it (us) to work.  today, 25% (and increasing) of american women are on reality-altering big pharma because its the only way anyone has found to quell womens knowing and womens agony at knowing, and womens resulting resistance, even if its “just” that we cant seem to pull ourselves out of bed in the morning to continue to contribute to our own demise (including our legal and moral responsibility to the next generation of rapists and impregnators, otherwise known as male children).

and if i wasnt already planning to sign off again, that in itself might be enough to push me.  25% of american women, and i would think that the number is significantly higher among female activists by the way (i have heard of activist groups that are 100% medicated) are unable to sense the context/reality of patriarchy and male violence and subsequently are unable to appropriately respond/react to it.  the appropriate/reality-based female response of course being feelings of hopelessness and despair > followed by withdrawal of female energies from the patriarchal death machine (followed by possibly refocusing energies elsewhere.  that is if there is any female energy left).  theres a drug for that (many actually) and more and more women are taking their medicine.  its not as if they (we) have much other choice.

so.  add womens widespread anti-depressant use to the growing list of reasons feminism will fail.  its not going to work.  its over.  this is a done deal.  for those who are having trouble letting go, or want more evidence (as if 100 or 1000 or 10,000 years of womens feminist/anti-patriarchal failure is not evidence enough) as a thought exercise, for those who believe that consciousness raising will be our ticket to freedom, try to reconcile “liberating class:female” with “25% of american women are on antidepressants” that deliberately render them unable to sense and respond appropriately to patriarchy.  does that mean that the 25% of american women who cannot be reached through consciousness raising are not included in class:female?  im just asking.

for those who think that harm reduction will be the ticket, why exclude activist women themselves from the “class” that ought to get away from men how, where and when they can — rather, activist women are expected to negotiate and politic directly with dangerous men!  are female activists not included in class:female (for purposes of radical feminist liberation) either?  okay!

so…just so we are all on the same page, how small a class are we talking about, when we (radical feminists) talk about liberating class:female from dangerous and violent men?  we are already comfortable excluding 25% of american women from liberation via consciousness raising (i guess? not to mention probably lots and lots of other women who are un-reachable for various reasons globally) and all activist women are excluded from harm reduction strategies via the ONLY thing that is guaranteed to work, which is decreasing proximity to dangerous men.

we clearly arent talking about liberating “women” as a biological class anymore, so what are we talking about?  this is a serious question.  i would propose that, since we arent talking about women as a class anyway, not really, lets (continue to) look at increasingly tiny groups, just for fun, and ultimately lets examine a really really small group/class, including possible regional, local or even hyper-local (individual) solutions.  i mean why not right?

or would people prefer to continue talking about this like its something its not?

i will leave comments open on this one in case anyone wants to discuss.  thanks for coming back and reading and discussing with me/us.  to be clear, as last time, this will be my last post…unless its not.